When I started this blog, I made a promise to myself. I decided I would share not just the good but also the bad—the struggles, the messy thoughts, the highs and lows of my health and life. I wanted anyone going through similar situations to know that they are not alone. Because when you're facing challenges, feeling alone should be the last thing you experience.
So here I am, sitting on my bed watching reality TV (because your girl needs a distraction), two days after my doctor’s appointment. It’s been a year since I began my mental health journey and the journey to figure out what’s been going on with my body. And now, I’ve been told that I might have PCOS or Endometriosis. Finally, there might be a reason behind the struggles I’ve had with my body for, well, forever.
Starting this new chapter feels daunting yet oddly relieving. There’s something validating about knowing that the difficulties I’ve faced weren’t just in my head—there’s a real, medical explanation. But at the same time, it’s overwhelming. These words—PCOS, Endometriosis—are heavy. They come with so many unknowns, and I’m only at the very beginning of understanding what they mean to me.
If the ultrasound doesn’t provide any answers, we’ll keep searching and trying to figure out what’s going on. I’m ready to take the next step because one thing I know for certain is that it’s not normal to feel this way or to experience the pain and symptoms I have.
I’m sharing this because I want to remind myself and anyone reading this that it’s okay to feel overwhelmed. It’s okay not to have all the answers right away. What matters is that we keep showing up for ourselves, one step at a time. Whether it’s by asking questions at the doctor’s office, googling symptoms (even if they’re anxiety-inducing), or simply giving ourselves grace on the hard days, every small effort matters.
To those who might be on a similar journey, I see you. It’s not easy, but we’re not alone. And if nothing else, I hope sharing this moment in my life reminds you of that.
For now, I’m taking it one day at a time—one reality TV episode at a time—finding comfort in the small things and learning to trust that no matter how uncertain it feels, I’ll figure it out as I go.
